it had been a week since the new year. shit is boring, life is boring. throughout thew whole year, i remained the same, exactly unchanged. and dissatisfied with every aspect of life. and remained dissatisfied with life, for years. i remember in 2023 christmas, seeing people interact, talking, and being overall normal, respectable members of society (i know everyone has their own issues, but you don't know me, so you cant apply that type of reassurance to me.), whilst I lurk the internet in my small dingy room alone, and in existential dread. i was very restless during that time. nothing changed much in years. what a pathetic, shameful way to live.