Since I was 11 years old (roughly, I don't remember much from my childhood), I felt so lonely and bored in life.

I either made bad friends or no friends at all throughout high school. For several years, I was mostly left to my own thoughts and devices, sometimes in more recent years also looking and watching others do what I am unable; none of those people even knows of my existence. I feel very envious.

Seeing others succeed in life, whereas mine is no more valuable than dogshit left inconsiderately on the sidewalk is gonna make me crashout.

I try to do things that require social interaction on here nowadays. Though I don't have much to say, so almost no effect.

I don't think I'd be able to force something out, y'know when you are in a conversation, and someone says something and you don't know how to respond to it, so you say "yeah..." or "mm...." that would probably happen if I attempted to force something out, and that would feel very uncomfortable.