To be honest, I'm a very amoral person. I outright know that I have no values because they are malleable, and my whole worldview changes depending on the mood or circumstance. I make a new standard if my current one inconveniences me.

Many of the actions I take are based on self-interest, and some actions that seem selfless are for external validation only. I couldn't care less about other people's fortunes and misfortunes, no matter how big or small it is. It doesn't affect my mood in any way, I genuinely can't help feeling apathetic towards others' lives and circumstances. I only feel upset at things if they affect me personally.

If I acted supportive or empathetic to other people in unfortunate circumstances, then it just feels fake; it feels like I'm pretending to be something I'm not, it feels incredibly unnatural, deceptive even.

like, there would be shit that people would feel genuine moral outrage, nauseating disgust from but it just doesnt affect me

at all. Why should I care about whatever tf is happening in the US if I live elsewhere? Why should I care about bigotry if I don't fit the description of what a target would look like? Why should I care about someone getting bullied if I'm not the one who is getting bullied myself? Something like that.

idk why this is, perhaps I was raised wrong, perhaps I was socially underdeveloped or something.

This is a persistent personality trait that I have had for many years now.