I am so bored, today is a boring day, every day is a boring day. I've got nothing to do, I don't interact with the world very much, I tend to lock the door and stay in my room.
even though there isn't much to do inside my room, there's probably even less to do outside. So I don't bother, unless it's necessary.
I just browse the internet, eat food, think, or unlock my door and walk around the house. I mostly live my days doing whatever brings the most gratification and contentment at the current moment.
I don't have many friends, I've got one I guess. I don't have much in common, I don't value him very much, nor does he, both of us know that fact very well. I suppose it is better than being alone, so im going with it.
I see people making a group of friends in about 1 week, but it takes me months if not years. How do people do that? that is bullshit.
I talk to myself a lot to fill the time. A lot of the things that I think about are mostly kept to myself. The things that I think about are either just comments on mundane things or conversations with myself.
That is mostly how I spend my time.
I am so bored.
AlfaFranek
Think about it, going outside, even for an hour, is an instant gratification. Sunlight gives some vitamin D, cold and/or wind sobers mind, constant walking makes better blood circulation.
I know that's not what you meant by instant gratification, but those are still reasons to go outside.
I'm a sad fuck too, altough maybe to not same degree, I overthink, I dont do much, I'm lazy and I'm bad socially. Just like you. But all of that bothers me, so even tho its not pleasant, I try to be better. I try to walk outside, I try to not watch random shit on internet, I try to draw, I try to be better socially. It's all awkard, out of my comfort zone, but I feel just a bit better and its worth to not be a sad fuck.